13 November 2008

NOTEWORTHY CRUSH UPDATE


This kills me, in a silly good way. So I have ran into a few of you either on the phone or in person, and you changed our conversations to talk about my crush and why I haven't updated my blog since I mentioned this new seed, but you never commented on my blog. Which isn't a big deal, but come on guys if your interested, you gotta PUT OUT some signs..( blog comments of interest).

The night I burnt Halloween pumpkins everything changed.

It started off at FHE when my ward carved pumpkins, I ending up carving four which means, I'm pretty involved in my own thing. But this handsome guy in my ward befriended a brand new guy in our ward that happened to be next to me (Sadly, I was too engrossed in my punpkin to outreach) the artist in me was focused until this handsome guy hung around. Through slippery slimy orange fingers I tried to get to know him, and thought to myself (Why haven't I noticed his handsomeness). Immediately we made a couple connections with his mission and such, but even now as I type, our connection wasn't based off me loving his mission, it wasn't based off of him complimenting my carving skills, there was something more and it felt nice.

Handsome guy decided to invite people over to his house for a bonfire, I hesitated. I promised my homework we would hang out and spend some good quality time together, but those brown eyes of his seemed to convince me otherwise and I GAVE HEED.

Three of us girls got into Handsome guy's car and headed to his house and along the way he turned on music and declared he had a song for me to listen to. A dedicatory song to me, this was off to a good start. How did he know one of the paths to my heart was music and to step it up a notch. He played one of my favorite Death Cab For Cutie songs, I was flattered, floored and giddy about this. How did he know I love this so? I am usually the one presenting dedicatory things. He said he knew from facebook, which happens to be the second funniest place to stalk people (I mean give extra attention) next to blog stalking. So I was sitting in the back seat listening to this song, but thinking about his extra effort. I realized that crush number one couldn't produce anything for me, With that crush it was like playing chase with someone that played out of courtesy, he couldn't really say "hey, I just don't want to play tag, or chase or hide and seek with you" There is nothing worse than playing hide and seek when people don't take it serious..you know they are even the type that may make you hide for hours because it is funny to them.....Why was I seriously trying to play with someone that didn't take it serious.

There was about a dozen of us around that fire. And it was so much fun. Handsome guy talked to me more about not much and maybe nothing at all, but when you have that type of connection the content is layered by that connection. Everything becomes interesting to talk about because you're interested in them.

As he drove me and my mission companion back to my car at the institute, he verbally pointed out the defined connection we have.

The next Sunday gathering of lunch the old crush was there and I TOLD HIM ABOUT HANDSOME GUY!!! Speaking of him was so easy and a couple girlfriends were so surprised I told Crush #1 about Crush #2, but it was my closure that seemed to fit so well. (side note: I can't believe I pursued someone that considered themselves RESERVED)

So the bonfire was a great night and that great night turned into a great friendship. And this great friendship is something more. This started 18 days ago and I've seen him 11 of those, I only note that because I am working on my math skills! HAHa, you all can see right through me and I love that as well. 11 is a good number don't you think.

EVIDENCE of MORE than a CRUSH: Election night I was with him and for those of you that know me and my family and that night......but I couldn't not go.

I was with him last night. He gave me a sweet sweat wristband (that's another post) that I kept on all night, infact it is still on and I don't feel embarrassed.
With him I don't have to speak to him on his level, I am myself and it seems he even embraces that awkwardness missionary inside of me which gives me a sense that who I am makes sense, I feel it couldn't get sweeter than this, but you guys know how smooth I am,, so more sweetness is bound to come( I had to throw in some seriously so blessedness)

I actually have to give partial credit to Handsome guy about my thoughts about reservation, it was collectively revealed to me through so many people but mainly him because it has been so comfortable my level of reservation has been small. But here is the thing: currently he doesn't own soccer cleats! I am not really sure how to push through that. He did play indoor soccer with us the other night so I may or may not be letting that slide. You and I know how high my standards are for that help-meet! :)

There is more I could write but I'm going to blank-canvas it and open it up for questions

18 comments:

Amy said...

Fun! I love when you immediately know you have a connection with someone. Watch out though, if you already know he's stalking your facebook, who's to say he hasn't read this blog?? JK. I am way excited for you! And he is definately handsome!

laurasheridan said...

Um, no soccer cleats? I'm pretty worried about this. My "extra attention" paid off today b/c there was a new blog! Yay! Just so you know, I am all about daily contact as in I check this daily....

Amy-Queen of Kings said...

You know? I really felt like things weren't right with crush #1, I know I know I should have said something, but I feel you need to travel that road and hit all the bumps or forks in the road on your own. I am feeling pretty good about crush #2 though. All except the soccer cleats, but hey that gives you a fun project and a bit of a challenge! Enjoy this time! P.S. How much would you charge my fam for some family pics? It'd be my whole family (Speechly side). My parents, Jeff, April and her fam, Sam and her hubby and of course my family! Let me know if you even have time!!!

Rogers said...

I love the song dedication. That right there makes up for the "no soccer cleats". Right?

kelsie said...

I think it is okay that he doesnt meet the soccer requirements becaue he meets so many other things. On a side note did you stay longer after i left last night?

Stacie Marietti said...

I agree with Laura I think we need daily updates. I love your talent for writing out things that you have been thinking about. I love how you are yourself around him. It seems that you are overcoming RESERVATIONS with him and I am actually pretty jealous of you right now. I think that your reaction to crush #1's phone call shows a lot about what you feel for crush #2. I think he would be a good candidate to make other worlds with. :)

Karen said...

I miss you.

He sounds great!

Becky said...

It's the best when you feel that natural connection. You don't feel like you have to try with them, you can just be yourself. I think I only felt that with one person. *sigh* how romantical.

It's Me...shell said...

yay for new crushes! I always loved getting a connection with new people. It's fun when you automatically have a connection that's different than you've had with anyone before. I love your writing style by the by

Cate and Kory said...

I love your updates. You are so funny! YOu would let soccer cleats come in between you and an adorable crush #2??? I think not!!!

kristine said...

I am so glad you posted this. It literally made my day. That and the song by Cinematic Orchestra that you put on your blog... I like that song so much that when I felt compelled to comment, I clicked the link so that it would open in a new tab... so I could continue listening to it... You know? ANYWAY, I hope this crush bears many fruits...

Lisa said...

I am so excited to see your blog, it is great. It is going to take some time for me to get caught up on your crush 1 & 2, etc. Thanks for the update info.

carmar76 said...

I'm throwing my vote in for daily crush updates! I don't currently have a crush, so I'm living vicariously. LOL

R. Jane said...

Ok fashionista! I know that you try and pretend that you don't know me, but you bugged me for so long that I didn't have a blog. Well, I have had one for some time now, and you don't even have a link to it! Whatev...see if I do things that you tell me to anymore! Anyway, nice blog. You'll have to give me some pointers. Oh, and way to go on the crush!!!

Megan said...

Alright.. I have to admit that I'm dying to know who this crush it. Not that I would know him... but you've totally built suspense! How fun for you. I can't wait to read the next episode :)
p.s. I'm glad that we're openly blog-stalking each other. It feels good not to have to hide it.

kisa said...

YEAH!!!

McKeeth said...

:)

emma said...

i love reading your blog, and i'm dying to know what death cab song he played for you.